Praying for my rainbow

Well I'm pregnant again. We used Femerra to make me ovulate and I got pregnant the second month we tried. I am almost nine weeks now. We have already had one ultrasound and did get to see a wart beat. We have another ultrasound on Monday. I had a anxiety attack before the last one because I just kept remembering going into that office and not seeing a baby on that screen anymore. I think it will get easier after I pass my loss milestone, but this week is going to be scary I think. I have really been trying to be easy on myself and have probably been neglecting household stuff j should do but I'm just tired. I'm tired, nauseous and dizzy and add migraines where I can't see anyhog but fuzziness and you have one lazy pregnant woman. Oh well they say it gets better in second tri, hopefully we make it there.
In other news we sold out house. Our first home we bought together for our family is sold. It wa actually a really good thing. A lady came along and offered us cash for it and is letting us rent from her until out closing date, closing date of out new house that is! We are building a house and it should be done in about five weeks. I'm so excited! It's going to be a great start for our family and I'm so glad my husband and I got to pick everything in it. I'm trying to slowly pack everything and try to get everything done, but still not overdo it. It's a hard balance. We still have a month until we move but I just want to pack everything!

Pregnancy loss

Well in staying true to writing about our journey I unfortunately need to write this post. I miss carried this week. One day after coming home from Disneyworld. This has been the hardest thing I have ever experienced in my life and hope its a one time thing. I'm heartbroken and am ready for this to be over. I was almost ten weeks, and there is no explanation as to why it happened. All I can say is it did and it sucks. I was in no way prepared for this and had no idea how hard it is emotionally and physically. Luckily I have a amazing husband that has been my rock thru this. I am so grateful that he is my partner in life. This is hard but we will get thru this. Even though this is a horrible event in my life I still can say that I love my life and my family. My daughters amazing and so is my husband. I didn't realize how much the name of my blog would have such a direct meaning of how we have to look at life until this week. We have decided to try to conceive again immediately so the journey continues and we are taking things one day at a time.

Cravings

New cravings I wanted to share. Wild west shrimp from longhorn steakhouse, steak, mashed potatoes and salad. Also really liking popcorn with butter and salt. Mmmm!

In other news our first sonogram for baby #2 is on Monday.we will get a due date and get to see the heartbeat.

Also we have told Lillian about mommy having another baby and that it's in my tummy. She lifts my shirt says "baby" and giggles then says "Waa Waa Waa" while rubbing her eyes which is what she thinks babies say. :)

Melchor baby number two on the way!

We found out two weeks ago that we areexpecting. It was a bit of a shock because I didn't think I was going to be able t get pregnant with out fertility treatments to help me ovulate. I have not had a period since october but I went to the dr a month prior to finding out I'm pregnant and got a negative blood test. I much have conceived like the day after that because I believe I a about five weeks now. I have had one blood test to check the levels of hcg and progesterone. The hcg was doubling like is should, but my progesterone levels were at a 13. My dr says they should be at about 15 so I have been put on supplements that I take at night since they make me feel like I'm drunk! I go back to the dr on Monday to do some more bloodwork and hopefully after that I will get to have a sonogram appointment and and hear/see the heartbeat!

In other news baby girl is amazing she will be two in may and is just a joy to have in my life. I am so blessed to be a stay at home mom to her. I will treasure this time always. She is "talking" now. Not full sentences but she gets her point across. We have started the potty training process and I hope she takes to it soon because two in diapers (possibly both cloth) will be a pain!

On the home front, Shawn is loving his job, so I couldn't ask for more. I am having this battle of wanting to move though. I love our home for what it is. A small two story house,with small rooms and no backyard. Ok so that's the negative way to look at it but that's where I'm at today. I have fallen down these stairs four time since we moved in and I am very nervous being pregnant with our second child and having a almost two year old. Shawn thinks this house is just fine for our needs right now and really isn't up to moving. We will see what happens.

Ok off to make breakfast!